Looking back at my past self, I was incredibly ignorant, incredibly naive, adorably foolish, and heartbreakingly persistent.
The person I liked wasn't as good as I imagined, but what was good was the pure and simple courage I had in loving. Love is a humble longing, a heartfelt approach, and something indelible in a lifetime. So I tell myself to love forever, because I love the person I love so much. The only thing that won't disappoint you is objective reality. Ability, skills, the internet, and people are objective, but a person isn't.
Survival isn't as difficult as I imagined. My desires are lower than I thought, and I enjoy the somewhat mundane days of work and study. I don't need to endure humiliation to survive; someone like me who loves solitude is doing just fine.
Life can't be as pure, artistic, or demanding as I envision. In any case, life is a gradual process of development, and others will always look at your life with misunderstanding. You don't see your own life as something out of a biography, like someone destined for greatness. The reason I keep moving forward is simply because of my self-belief.
The internet isn't as mysterious as I thought. It's commercial, technological, cutting-edge, and open; information is scattered everywhere, and anyone willing to learn can learn it, and it's all actionable.
Online writing isn't as serious as I imagined. It's relaxed, casual, playful, about writing from the heart, utilizing technology, and open interaction—that's more important than traditional writing. The saying "everyone has a responsibility for the fate of the nation" is less important than being fun. Creating a world with a serious attitude is foolish; just approach it with a playful, exploratory mindset. New methods are actually great.
Society isn't complicated, and we're not as vulnerable as we think. There are many desires and many voices; those who can't satisfy themselves are inevitably consumed and controlled. Many voices are there to control people. So, having desires and the ability to satisfy them is enough. The internet allows many to enjoy abundant information, ample learning resources, and opportunities for advancement.
Self-improvement is more important than self-condemnation. It's not wrong to play on your phone all day, it's not wrong to be addicted to games, it's not wrong to crave comfort and dislike hardship. What's wrong is doing these things all day without finding your own way of life. If you like it, be responsible for it. Doing it while complaining about it—isn't that pathetic?
Life isn't as boring as I thought. There are so many interesting things in the world; it's just a matter of whether you're willing to be. Embracing change is definitely much happier, and acceptance is happier than criticism, doubt, and refusing to draw conclusions.
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